My dead wife's twin sister

no no no no no this cannot be, I don't believe it, she cannot leave me, she cannot leave us, maybe I am dreaming it just cannot be, how can she do that, I mean we got our life ahead of us, we have plans to fulfil, our future cannot end like this, why did you not tell me oh GOD, I am a bad wife , I am the worst in this world, she was sick but I couldn't see it, i was always with you almost 24 hours through morning sickness, weird combination of food and bathing both of us was my favourite part of my day you were always horny and i always fulfil your needs, we where happy that we are going to have a baby I remember the very first time you told me you want to have a baby, i thought you where crazy and it was a crazy idea, i mean i am a baby myself and i am sometimes irresponsible but you promised me you will be with me by my side rising the baby and now you oh GOD what am I going to do, i cannot rise the baby by myself, i felt tears rolling down my face from my eyes, love you have to wake up" my wife said". Baby were are you I need you. I am here and will always be here and forever, go be with our son he needs you" she said". no no no i want to be here with you forever, You fool to be with me you have to be dead and if t kill yourself i will beat your ass, now i love you and our son please take care of yourself and him, go to him "she said". i open my eyes. I blink few times adjusting the light of the room, it was very white for my liking, i was in the hospital bed, oh thank GOD you're awake i heard my mother's voice but I cannot see her, oh baby don't cry,i didn't realise tears where rolling down my face, oh mom what's going on, you fainted Honey 3 days ago mom said, what where is my wife and the baby, oh baby your wife is is is she said i didn't let her finish what she was about to say, i was hoping you will say she is ok, fine that she is holding our baby waiting for me she is not dead i was now crying like a baby, i get of the bed, where are you going i need to see the baby, i need to look after it, relex the nurse took him to change his diaper they will bring him back she said and the door open revealing a girl wearing white i knew then that she was the nurse she comes closer to the bed, can can i hold him i said, she give me him I looked at him, he was so small and fragile, he looks like her blonde hair and blue eyes I couldn't help myself i started crying again. A minutes later the doctor came in, You bi**h I said giving the baby to my mom, after I fly off the bed and grab the doctor's cot , we came to you every time you saw we were happy, we were planning for the future and you didn't tell me anything wrong with my wife, I have known you since I opened my eyes, are our family doctor but not anymore you hear me, I don't want to see your face anymore, I release her. she sighed confidentiality "doctor said" I want to go home now release us, she went out side.