Not So Ordinary Girl

She's not my first, but I'm definitely sure she's my true and last love. I can see my future in her. That kind of feeling knowing that she's the one I'm waiting for. Masaya 'yung unang pagkikita namin, even the first... kiss that we shared, even the first touch. The first grasped. The first scream. The first intimate time together. It was... perfect, so majestic. Our family and friends are very supportive of our relationship, walang humadlang, walang kumontra, walang epal, walang kulang sa arugang inggeterang frog. Gustung-gusto siya ng family ko at gano'n din 'yung family niya sa'kin. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 years of being together. Nothing has changed. We still love each other like it's the first stage of our relationship. Naging understanding at supportive ako sa mga ganap niya sa buhay and so is she. Medyo nagsasalubong lang kami sa isang bagay. We both have jealous asses. Kahit walang malisya, magseselos pa din kami, kahit may jowa 'yung kausap namin, magseselos pa din kami, kahit wala silang ginagawang kababalaghan, magseselos pa din kami. 4 days before our 8th anniversary, I decided to take our relationship to a whole new level. In my first proposal, I thought of something simple yet romantic for me. Romantic FOR ME ha. I have the four words syempre 'yung 'Will you marry me?' Tapos pinacustomized ko as ref magnets, kaso waley, hindi niya napansin. So plan B tayo. I called our friends and told them I wanted to play a game, parang dedicating a song to someone o kaya song charades mga gano'n. I rent the entire resort para kami lang talaga nando'n. Sinama ko na din 'yung mga close friends namin. Fast forward, she said yes and we got engaged. But after our 8th anniversary, I... don't know what happened. I don't know what I did wrong. I don't know if I said something wrong. Nagsawa din ba siya sa'kin? Nafell out of love kaya siya? May iba kaya? She left me with no answers to my questions. Nakipagbreak siya through text message. Sakit 'no? Tangina. My world fell apart. I thought we were fine. I thought we were having the best time of our lives. I thought she couldn't live without me. I can't move on, to be honest. I don't want to. I f*****g love her so much. I just want her. Just her. 1, 2, 3 months passed. Never siyang sumagot sa mga tawag ko. Never siyang nagreply sa mga text messages ko. She even blocked me on her social media accounts. Then, 8th month of not seeing and talking to each other. I saw her. In a photo studio. A studio that specializes in pre-wedding photoshoots. Unfortunately, She's engaged. With someone else.